This is where my journey of Kundalini yoga, sound and energy healing begun, it lead me to learning, experiencing and healing. Now I share my story...

 

Before the disassociation, it was lockdown, covid trauma I call it, many went into survival mode, many are still struggling to make their way out of it even today.

 

I remember the weather, the first part of the extended time with the family, it was great, but gradually mindsets and moods changed and I like many struggled with the expectations of having to do everything - mother, chef, cleaner, dog walker, teacher, partner, shopper. Although I was a Vinyasa yoga teacher, I was in my infancy on my spiritual journey and my life was thrown into chaos. By the end of the whole covid experience I was an absolute mess.... I reached burn out, I lost the ability to balance, my body felt different, my left side was numb, in esoteric and Chinese medicine the left represents your inner and emotional world. The doctors and neurologists throughout said I was making it up, I had strength and flexibility, I was physically strong. I was a yoga teacher after all! Until the evidence of an MRI presented itself, I wasn't, multiple lesions on my brain diagnosed as Multiple Sclerosis.

 

Not being listened to by the professionals life became extremely de-habilitating both mentally and physically. After the diagnosis I had to begin a process of recovery to navigate through the complex PTSD I had suffered from having not been listened too. As well as working through a home life and the traumatic events of a relationship breakdown...

I was living with someone who was neurodivergent (can also be known as multiple personalities disorder), symptoms often include the inability to self regulate, which then lead to addiction, we were navigating the highs and lows and it was tough, heartbreaking and traumatic. Life was full of boundless energy and laughter until the addiction, this affected the mood and included psychosis and depression, a cyclical rollercoaster that was happening behind closed doors. I felt pulled in all directions whilst trying to manage my own health of an undiagnosed invisible nervous system disability Multiple Sclerosis.

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From this traumatic situation it brought up many of my childhood wounds and trauma and I had absolutely no idea of who I was! I had to recognise my history and patterns...

 

Substance abuse

Abandonment

Parents divorced

Racism

Childhood bullying 

Emotional neglect

Raised in a misogynistic and patriarchal household

 

With deep realisation for the 40 years of my life, a wrecked nervous system and in complete trauma response of flooding, constantly in tears, I placed myself into my childhood with recognition. I booked my space on Carolyn Cowan's Kundalini Global Teacher Training, specialising in trauma and addiction psychotherapy and I've never looked back. For so many reasons it set me free and I am thankful to Carolyn and the Training.

 

Understanding brain and 21st century science it allowed me to gain control. Now with every breath I take full responsibility and accountability for my own life with no dependancy. Now, I recognise that had I of been in control of my mind and body connection it wouldnt have taken me so long to find happiness within. I can finally see - home is held in your very own heart. Self love is in the body.

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Through our endocrine system we can balance our hormones and through neuro-plasticity we can make our lives better, by choosing to change, by creating new transmitters and pathways within our system we are present and stronger within our own vessel.

 

It's important to nourish our inner child, body, mind & soul. If we can change our mindset and  come from a realisation of prevention rather than cure, with the right balance of energy we can re-align our bodies and bring health & harmony into our overall wellbeing. 

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What has helped me to continue with resilience and positivity is now what I offer to you… Breathwork, Meditation, Sound Healing and Kundalini Global Yoga.

 

Hand on heart I can say these therapies have raised my vibrations and supported my mental health, given me positivity and strength around my decisions, enhanced my beliefs and values and I do honestly credit these therapies for giving me focus and stability when life got incredibly tough! 

 

Now I’m here to support and guide you with your wellbeing… xxx

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If you resonate and want to have a chat please call me - 07912746155 or email me info@kundaliniglobalwithnicola.co.uk